archangel_akira

Miyavi!!!!

2009-10-07T19:38:14Z

Well, we all know by now that I am Miyavi obsessed. Now I get the chance to see him live! ^-^ Leeca and I will be making the wonderful trip to Atlanta, Georgia and back again. ....All in one day. I'm beginning to have flashbacks to a time when we were crazy enough to drive to Baltimore and back in one day. Oh yeah, that was just a couple of months ago o.O

I can't wait!! I'm so excited! Miyavi here we come. Maybe Gackt will travel with Miyavi since they're such great friends. Maybe Gackt was like, "I want to visit the states..." Then Miyavi goes, "Rock on Gackt! You should come with me on my tour and we can hook up with some chicks and party and shit!" -_- I doubt Miyavi would say stuff like that but you get the point.

Lee-lee, I have a present for you! When you get home let me know when you want to hang out so I can bring you your present. It's just something little I made for you. Actually, I'm going to put it on now so I don't forget to bring it to you. Now your mind is wandering isn't it? What could it be? Is it extra special and super fun-licious? Sure it is!

Save the Day

2009-09-20T01:06:04Z

I had this really crazy series of dreams the other night and they were kind of cool. The first one, I was in an office building and I hear rain outside. I've appearantly been cleaning out this office all day long. When I hear the rain finally stop I look outside the window, but instead of a city there's a rainforest with a long river opening into a lake. The rain had caused the river to start to flood. And oddly enough there are dolphins jumping and swimming through the river. That was it.....nothing else, just broke off in mid dream for no reason. The color theme of that dream was blue-green.

I woke up for some reason or other then went back to sleep and had another dream that I don't really remember. Then came this wacky one ^_^

I was at my dad's house and there was some sort of party going on but there's some group of guys that are trying to steal a baby (don't know whose but I hope it wasn't mine). So I'm trying to sneak the baby out of the house and save it. The leader of the gang realizes I'm gone and sends the rest of the guys looking for me. I had snuck out of the back sliding-glass door and onto the porch. I was hiding in a corner holding the baby waiting for the gang to disappear. The coast looks clear, but the door opens and one of the guys spots me hiding. I don't remember a name or anything but he looked like Jun Matsumoto? He was definitely Japanese, that much I'm sure of. I thought he was going to turn me in but he just grabs my arm, kisses me on the cheek and says, "Go!" I ran into the woods and met up with this farmer in a wheat field ?_? (I told you it was crazy!) He and his wife and two kids, daughters I think, stow me away in their old beat up pick-up truck. At this point the baby is almost nonexistent. I remember thinking "I have to save him, he's important" but I don't remember seeing or holding him anymore. Anyways, we park the truck in some random parking lot and get out. We walk through the woods a bit and come to this beach/river. I say beach because it was all tan and sandy. I say river because even though the sand was beachy it wasn't an ocean, just another river. The farmer tells me I'll be safe here and I start walking along the shoreline. There's a village of people that constantly live on the shore and the farmer is making arrangements for me to stay with them. Meanwhile the girls and I (I can't remember clearly but I'm 90% sure they were girls) are watching kids splashing in the water. I look across the river and on an island in the middle of the river there are about ten or so dolphin statues that the villagers have made. We keep walking and round this bend in the river. As I come around the curve of the river I see this gorgeous series of waterfalls that run into the river. I actually said to the girls, "That's beautiful!" Then I see about three dolphins chasing each other through the river. By the end of the dream there's no baby at all. This dream also cut off at a strange spot. And the color theme was tan and white.

I thought it was strange to have two dreams in one night, both with rivers and dolphins. I forgot to mention the baby was tiny and looked sick.

Dolphins
To see a dolphin in your dream, symbolizes spiritual guidance, your intellect, mental attributes and emotional trust. Utilize your mind to its capacity and you will move upward in life. Alternatively, it suggests that a line of communication has been established between the conscious and unconscious aspects of yourself. Dolphins represent your willingness and ability to explore and navigate through your emotions.

River
To see a clear and calm river in your dream, indicates that you are allowing your life to float away or that you are just going with the flow. It is time to take a more decisive role in directing your life. Alternatively, a river symbolizes joyful pleasures, peace and prosperity.

Baby
To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted. If you find a baby in your dream, then it suggests that you have acknowledged your hidden potential. If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying hide your own vulnerabilities; You do not want to let others know of your weaknesses. If you dream that you are on your way to the hospital to have a baby, then it signifies your issues of dependency and your desire to be completely care for. Perhaps you are trying to get out of some responsibility. If you are pregnant, then a more direct interpretation may simply mean that you are experiencing some anxieties of making it to the hospital when the time comes.

To dream of an extremely small baby, symbolizes your helplessness and your fears of letting others become aware of your vulnerabilities and incompetence. You may be afraid to ask for help and as a result tend to take matters into your own hands.

Blue
Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness. Perhaps you are expressing a desire to get away. The presence of this color in your dream, may symbolize your spiritual guide and your optimism of the future. You have clarity of mind.

Depending on the context of your dream, the color blue may also be a metaphor of "being blue" and feeling sad.

Green
Green signifies a positive change, good health, growth, fertility, healing, hope, vigor, vitality, peace, and serenity. Green is also symbolic of your strive to gain recognition and establish your independence. Money, wealth and jealousy are often associated with this color.

Dark green indicates materialism, cheating, deceit, and/or difficulties with sharing. You need to balance between your masculine and feminine attributes

Brown
Brown denotes worldliness, practicality, domestic and physical comfort, conservatism, and a materialistic character. Brown also represents the ground and earth. You need to get back to your roots.

Office
If the office in your dream is unfamiliar or strange, then it suggest that you are constantly comparing yourself to others.

Rain
To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain may be a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness.

To dream that you are watching the rain from a window, indicates that spiritual ideas and insights are being brought to you awareness. It may also symbolize fortune and love.

Pick-Up Truck
To see a pick-up truck in your dream, represents hard work. It also suggests the need to return to the basics.

Waterfall
To see a waterfall in your dream, is symbolic of letting go. You are releasing all those pent up emotions and negative feelings. The dream may also represent your goals and desires. In particular, if the waterfall is clear, then it represents revitalization, regeneration and renewal.

To dream that you are at the bottom of the waterfall, suggests that you are feeling emotionally overwhelmed. You are experiencing difficulties in coping with your feelings.

In the Daylight Everywhere Feels Like Home

2009-08-10T01:00:06Z

It's been a while since my last post so i thought I'd take a few moments out of my oh-so-busy day to update my LJ. Haven't been up to much and I've got the next two days off so who knows maybe I'll make a cross country trip to see another J-rock group =P That was fun! Well, it wasn't really a cross country trip..... close enough though!

I have been working on my costumes recently. I have the basis for most of my dragoon armor done. I'm about 15% done with Rose in general. Yuna - only about 5% done. But the conventions are a ways away so I've got time. =^_^=

I've also been making a really cool masquerade masque. Right now it's in a raw clay form. When the clay dries I will sand it to make it smooth and then paint and decorate it. Once it's finished I'll post a picture.

VAMPS!

2009-07-18T05:31:08Z

So about week ago it seems I was sitting in Leeca's bedroom and we were plotting as to how we could meet up with Miyavi and Gackt. She mentions that Hyde is in the midst of a tour in the US with his band VAMPS. We devise this crazy scenario where we somehow come up with the money to buy tickets to one of his concerts, drive or take a train there and see Hyde in person, who has connections to Gackt, who has connections to Miyavi....you get the point. So as we're searching for the locations of his shows we find that the closest they will get to us is MARYLAND!!!! o.O Appearantly Japanese music artists don't believe that those of us living in the southern United States listen to J-rock or J-pop. Well, needless to say, we're crushed that we will not be seeing Hyde (or Gackt or Miyavi for that matter) ;_; But, don't get your tissues out yet.  By some miracle performed of some higher being (or maybe by me asking for my Christmas and birthday presents for the next five years combined) I suddenly find myself amazingly wealthy ^^; or something like that. So three days before the show we purchase our tickets, and ready our cameras. We decide to turn an 800+ mile drive into a 'daycation' to see VAMPS.
We left Thursday at about noon and arrive at the venue 7 and a half hours later. Half an hour before the opening of the doors we hike a mile to the back of the line. The only thing going through my head is "Damn, we drove all this way; even through Washington D.C. rush hour traffic, just to get stuck in the back corner of a crowded club. Or maybe not even get in at all." Turns out we were in the middle of a crowded club but we were still close enough to actually see Hyde, K.A.Z. and Ju-ken. We got pushed, prodded, and violated and soaked with bottled water all night but it was so worth it!!!   ^^   I bought us some VAMPS tote bags and I splurged to get myself a CD, which I have been listening to every spare second since I got back. We drank some nasty carbonated water -.- we searched for the VAMPS bracelets that we tried to launch over the crowd and onto the stage (never did find one of them). Then as soon as it all started it was over and we were venturing another 7 and a half hours to get back home.

For the first hour after the show everyone sounded all high-pitched.  Then gradually, as we were on our way back home, I started gaining more hearing and everything just sounded muffled. Actually it would have sounded exactly like when I get water in my ears after swimming except for that constant ringing o.O Some how we managed to make it home unscathed (aside from our busted eardrums) on no sleep and one energy drink each. I walked through the door, dropped all of my belongings, jumped on the internet to post "great show" on the Vamps page, stumbled my way to the bathroom to take a shower, pulled on some pj's, hopped into bed and waited for the incessant ringing in my eardrums to carry me away to dreamland. ^_~ After four hours sprawled haplessly across my bed on my sweet, sweet pillow my alarm interjected rudely into my unconsciousness. It was screaming at me to wake up and prepare myself for the inevitable...a Friday night at work.

I still can't believe it all happened. It somewhat feels like a dream. But I saw Hyde!!! And even though, ultimately, our plan failed it was well worth the time and the effort!

"Don't worry, I will take care of you tonight!"

Vamps in Concert!!

2009-07-13T16:14:05Z

So hopefully if everything goes well Leeca and I will be traveling all the way to Baltimore, Maryland to see Vamps!! I'm so excited and a little bit nervous. If we make it to the meet and greet we will get to see Hyde up close in person ^_~ But good gosh I'm going to be tired on Friday at work. 7and a half hours each way just for one concert ... My god Leeca we're crazy!!!!! But we already knew that ;p

And if our plan works Hyde will make use of his many connections to hook us up with Gackt and Miyavi. Then.....goodbye world, for I will be in heaven ^^; obsessive much? I think not!

Crazy Dreams

2009-06-28T16:01:52Z

The other night I was on Gaia chatting with this weird girl named AngelLeeca ;p Anyways we kept talking about Gundam Wing. Then I saw the infamous Gundam replica commercial on Adult swim. I guess somehow Gundam was pounded into my subconscious. That night I had a crazy awesome dream about none other than.......can you guess it? That's right! GUNDAM WING!!

It was a couple of nights ago, so I don't remember everything exactly, but I think it went something like this...It started out with the whole GW gang hanging out on a colony. Even my bestest bud Leeca was there! All of a sudden Heero gets a call on his cell o.O (I don't remeber Heero ever having a cell phone, but oh well) And he and almost everyone else took off in their Gundams. Me and Leeca are sitting there talking when I get a call. It's Trowa, he's screaming at me to help him. Appearantly, someone had turned the pilots against each other and everyone was attacking Trowa, poor Trowa. Anyway...I get into my own personal Gundam. I can't really remeber what it looks like, but I help Trowa fend of Heero and Duo. I don't really know what happened after that, I just Remember jumping out of my Gundam and the sun was rising. It was really pretty ;_;

I WANT A GUNDAM!!!!!!

Barrel Monster

2009-06-21T04:07:48Z

This is so awesome!! I want one of these in my front yard! Screw pink flamingos, these are the yard ornaments of the next generation:

http://s3.photobucket.com/albums/y57/akira_morehi/?action=view&current=BarrelMonster.jpg

Funny Final Fantasy Vids

2009-06-19T05:25:17Z

So, if you have an obsession with Final Fantasy like I do, you'll spend all of your spare time finding new Final Fantasy material to keep yourself entertained. Let's face it, no matter how wonderously awesome Advent Children might be......and it is.....you can only watch it so many times until it's embedded into your brain. Then you don't have to watch it anymore because it's all photographically stored up there ^^; I speak from experience.

Anyways, the point of all that was to introduce the fact that I have found more amazingly hilarious Final Fantasy media. These are a series of clips from Nico Nico Douga. Just the pure combination of dancing chibi Final Fantasy characters, including but not limited to dancing chibi moogles and chocobos, Cloud dressed as a girl o.O (scarey), and an impossibly cheery and giddy Sephiroth makes watching these worthwhile. Guaranteed to give you a chuckle at least ^_~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GTWmlFxyqMI - This is just genius!! It has everything from a dress donning Cloud, to a chibi chocobo and moogle dancing, Squall getting the crud beat outta him by Cloud, and Tidus daydreaming of Lulu x_X crazy!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0Crf2VxWy4 - Poor Zack can't keep up with Angeal and Genesis' orders. The best part is at the end...wait for it!! Ting Tang Walla Walla Bing Bang @_@
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lS8CloU0xa4 - More of girly Cloud, plus some chibi chocobos and a chibi moogle dancing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USKZXODxDyI - Cloud dancing around in a dress...'nough said ^^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pAV5aI5rmpU - Don't ask, I just found Sephiroth latched onto Cloud's shirt amusing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hyId4c2_p3A - We're not even gonna comment on this one... I lied, Sephiroth as a squirrel-thing?!? ?_? wth?

If only I could understand them!! It'd probably not be as funny then o.o Here's two more. Not the same series but they're still funny ^^; I have an obsession.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLVoomYTAXA - I think the song itself is what makes it so funny!! and why does Cloud have three parents?! Creepy! ...Another egg please!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DBPjZtQGXtQ - Cloud and Sephy singing the F.U.N. song from Spongebob. I hate Spongebob, but it's so funny I can't help it!! 'I feel all tingly inside ... should we stop?'

Could you tell I was bored today?

Bunnies!! It must be Bunnies!

2009-06-18T15:20:18Z

So I was searching on Youtube the other day and I found this hilariously funny video where someone had taken the audion to Buffy the Vampire Slayer, the musical episode Once More with Feeling; and they had matched it up to clips of Final Fantasy 12! It was great!!! Dare I even say 'Brilliant'. I laughed the whole time! It's just so wrong how poor Fran gets ganged up on. It's better if you just watch it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_c0EBpuCPg

Basch as Xander is kinda weid at first, but you get used to it. Poor Fran.

I Started working on my costume some more, but I didn't get very far. I'll have to update my cosplay.com page and post pictures...one of these days. I hate working all of the time. I never have time to do what I want to. But if I didn't work, I wouldn't have the money to do what I want to. oh well.

My past is catching up to me AGAIN!!!!

2009-06-09T01:37:33Z

Someone out there has it out for me I swear!!!! An old friend just contacted me and wants to do lunch to 'catch up'. Leeca, it's someone from WCU. Someone I don't like! Someone my stupid butt agreed to go out to lunch with. Argggg!!!! I'm such a moron!! I felt so bad. I haven't seen this person in like three years or more, and I didn't want to just be like "no, that's alright, besides I don't really like you all that much anyway..." As if once wasn't enough!!!!

So this poses the question: How do you blow someone off without being rude or mean?
Do you lie to them? 'Actually I'll be really busy all week long, no chance of hanging out this week' (knowing you'll be doing absolutely nothing but working on a cosplay costume, or playing Final Fantasy) It just seems so wrong, and fake. Does that person know you just lied to them? They're thinking 'Yeah, she's not going to be doing anything but playing Final Fantasy or making a cosplay costume. She's just avoiding me...'

Curse my bad luck, curse it all to hell!!

Heh heh! Now that I got that out time to move on to more important things. Such as this awesome dress I found and I want to make:
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y57/akira_morehi/fashion/bluemojo.jpg
Technically it's lolita, but it's more like casual lolita.

I almost cried the whole time

2009-06-07T15:56:52Z

If you can't handle very emotional movies don't go see 'Up'. I swear I had tears in my eyes throughout almost the entire film. You would think that being a kid's movie it would be more funny than sad but nope. Actually there were a lot of amusing parts.... the talking dog who could speak Japanese was great. I was sitting there thinking 'the dog probably speaks Japanese better than I do'. Over all it was a great movie, just very emotional.

I have to register for my Fall classes at RCCC. I keep putting it off. Anyways, when I get my Anime Cafe up and running are you gonna come work with me Leeca? You can be my comanager! I can't wait for it!!! It's going to be so cool, and we will get to meet a ton of anime fans. Akira's Anime and Cosplay Cafe. Is that too much? Maybe just Akira's Anime Cafe?

Rose

2009-05-30T23:59:05Z

I already started working on my costume for AZ2010. I bought the tights yesterday and I'm about halfway done with the leg armor. I still need to buy the boots and shirt and model magic/clay (about ten tons of that). Who knew costumes could be so expensive... oh yeah, I already knew that. Well, so far it's been pretty easy. Just wait til I get to the torso and such. You won't hear from me for weeks. I'll be locked in a basement somewhere making model magic foam armor. That's kind of scary if you think about it because I don't have a basement o.O

*glares at Leeca 'We should do this costume, it'll be fun'* naw, just kidding, I'm glad you made me start early this time. Maybe this go around I'll get more than four hours of sleep the week before the convention. Or maybe not...

On a random side note: You ever have one of those days where you stay hungry no matter what you eat? That's today for me.

Final Fantasy!

2009-05-29T03:43:21Z

So ya know Jeff Foxworthy's routine "You might be a redneck if..."? Well I've come up with my own version. Here we go!

You might play too much Final Fantasy if:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pCLIg6WT7zM

You might play WAY too much Final Fantasy if:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d81qFaoe010

I want a cockatiel now!!!! ^_~

Married?

2009-05-28T17:10:31Z

Wow, so Jay starts talking about how he's planning on joining the military in August. He called his recruiter and that's the soonest they can get him in. But he's thinking about going into active duty. >.> not good for me. He'll be away for about four years and unless we get married, we can't live together. I really don't want to get married right now. But if we do get married and I live on base with him the government will pay for my college classes. Then again, the grants I have cover my classes I'm taking right now.

I think I'd rather just stay here and wait for him. It makes me sad to think that he might be shipped off anytime anywhere ;_; Oh well, as long as he comes home safely at the end of his term I don't mind. I can wait for him ^^

Animazement 2009

2009-05-25T04:08:41Z

Good bye Con! See you next year!

2009-05-24T20:25:22Z

Well, as much fun as it was the convention is now over. ;_; Ja ne Animazement! We will miss you. Leeca, want to go to Ichibancon with me next year?. That's the one in Concord! We won't have to get a hotel room. It's within driving distance. I thinks it's the first year for that con (Jan 8-10 2010)

Aside from the minor costume mishaps and malfunctions everything was all groovy. I didn't do anything wild or outrageous ((or dangerously passionate (inside joke to Leeca) ha ha)) Only regret: not going back to the dealer's room in time. Oh well, I still got to buy myself something from artist's alley. And I got some really great pictures! Yay! I'll post the pictures soon.

All in all, ton's of fun. It just felt weird not being at the Sheraton this year. And getting lost in Raleigh was a bit frustrating but we made it home!

my past is catching up to me

2009-05-06T16:19:35Z

So I'm beginning to wonder if going to AZ 09 is such a great idea. Leeaca, I'm so glad you said maybe to Friday. If that maybe turns into a no, sadly I won't be going at all. Don't think you're that special............ ^_~ just kidding! But seriously, I don't want to go alone because J and I have had some issues lately (long story). And lately I've been having strange dreams. About someone from my past.....someone I met at AZ. Are you putting this all together? So, you're there not only as my friend who loves AZ as much as me, but also as my bodyguard keeping me from doing something idiotic. So you see the problem I have if I go alone? If you can't go Friday then we will just have to go to another con. Which is probably the safer route anyways.
Well, I'm out. Catch ya on the flip side.

Already?

2009-04-29T03:37:16Z

Hard to believe that Animazement is here again. Seems like just last year that I was on the road to ........ wait, that was last year. As usual my costume is nowhere near complete so I will most likely be cut off from the world for the next four weeks spending every waking minute with my intimate friend. My sewing machine you perverts! Get your minds out of the gutter x.X
I need a life ...
Well, better get to work.

Egads!

2009-02-26T03:43:50Z

Even though my computer is ill with a virus I still have means of accessing the web. It's called my beloved PS3! Just takes three days to type a sentence.

I'm Back!

2008-10-01T00:27:00Z

From Outer Space!!! You know the rest. Don't have a heart attack people, I'm actually posting an entry. Loss of internet use prevented my posts recently. But guess what....I'm back! Yay!

As we know it

2006-09-18T05:03:53Z

My oh my, I am in a state of complete boredom as I haven't been working lately. Reading, watching movies, playing DDR and other video games. All failed attempts to cease this state of mind. Yeah right! Like DDR can't entertain me!!! HA! But I do feel the need to get out of Salisbury for a while.

I can't wait til the Ren Fest comes about!! Woot! And Midori had best come visit me while it's here so we can go together or it will be her skin! ^^; as if I could ever hurt my Midori!!! I LOVE YOU MID-Chan!!!!!! And I miss you and I can't wait til this spring when I get to join the crowd of Western goers! yay!

As of today, I'm going to make an effort to post at least once a week. ......who believes that's gonna happen? =D well you're all wrong! ((I think)) I'm gonna make it happen! *glares at all of you who are thinking at this point "yeah right, next post date: december 13, 2017" curse you!*

Ta da! and now it is time for me to go to bed!

What he didn't know was that the eggs were really .....

2006-05-26T16:50:12Z

^_~ fill in the blanks however you wish. Guess what...AMINE CONVENTION TODAY!!!!!! I'm not as excited about this one. Probably because we aren't staying at the Sheraton and I've been twice before and I also failed to finish a costume this year. I skipped school today just to work on a costume and it just didn't want to work for me. I got very frustrated with it and I'm not going to bother with it. Curse all of you out there who can make costumes better than I can ;_; so sad.

anyway, I went to my dreaded movie on Wednesday! It was horrible, terrible, very very wretched!! I almost died! well....not really but I kind of wanted to ^^; It was okay though cause I had Maximillion with me. So yeah, that's over finally and my conscience is cleared of one person. Of course I have yet to clear my conscience of another person.......who will be at the convention....fantastic. I feel so bad about what happened last year but I got scared and freaked out and I'M SORRY KURISU!!!!!!

well now I want to cry. So anywho. To all those not at the convention =P

~Spike: It's just that he was all alone. Never anyone to share the game. A man who lived in dreams -- that's who he was.

ARE YOU LIVING IN THE REAL WORLD?

Nobody has to know

2005-10-20T02:48:34Z

why is it that it makes him smile to know that i cry inside? and once again find myself wondering what the hell i've done. everything was set out before me and i chose to throw it all away. i had all that i had ever asked for save for one thing. and i ran from it. i ran away because it was TOO perfect. is that possible?

lately i've been wanting it all back. i want to run back to that place that keeps me so safe (or so i feel). and i won't let myself. all i can think is "you're the one that let it all go. you're the one that wanted something new. you're the one that ran away from it all. you're the one that gave up on it." and i won't let myself run back to it, every bit of it. now it's gone and i want every piece of it back. even the things that i previously hated. and the things that i hated to love. where's it all gone? ha, that's a stupid question...i know exactly where it is. it's right where i left it.

i have so many ways to go back to it. i have countless ways to run back to my haven. but i will not let myself. it cannot help me anymore. i've already given up on it and i've already stopped believing in it so how can it save me now. how can it take me from this reality when i've already let it go? i will search for a new haven. a new neverland.

~you are here alone again
in your sweet insanity
all too calm, you hide yourself from reality
do you call it solitude? do you call it liberty?
when all the world turns away to leave you lonely

the fields are filled with desires
all voices crying for freedom
but all in vain they will fade away
there's only you to answer you, forever

in blinded mind you are singing
a glorious hallelujah
the distant flutter of angels
they're all too far, too far to reach for you

i am here alone again
in my sweet serenity
hoping you will ever find me in any place
i will call it solitude when all my songs fade in vain
fly my voice, far away to eternity~

Free Bird

2005-10-19T23:39:54Z

~today i danced my loudest and i laughed at the day, did you?
~i'm just waiting for my turn

I had a dream that I could fly
I can feel each moment as time goes by
We'd never be too far away,
You would always be here, I heard you say

I never thought
Thought that it would be our last goodbye
(our last goodbye.)
I still can dream
That one day love will fall out from the sky

Do you still remember all the time that has gone by?
(do you believe?)
Do you still believe that love can fall out from the sky?
If from where you're standing, you can see the sky above
I'll be waiting for you, if you still believe in love
(do you still believe?)

Find a way to bring back yesterday
Find a way to love
I hope we stay
When tomorrow becomes today
Love will find a way

I'll be waiting for you, in my heart you are the one
If I cannot find you, I will look up to the sun
(do you believe, do you believe?)
If from where you're standing, you can see the sky above
I'll be waiting for you, if you still believe in love

Do you believe?
Do you believe?

Do you still remember all the time that has gone by?
Do you still believe that love can fall out from the sky?
If from where you're standing, you can see the sky above
(do you believe?)
I'll be waiting for you, if you still believe in love

Do you believe?

~by the door you said you had to go, couldn't help me any anymore~

Eventful Weekend

2005-10-11T00:03:39Z

hey everybody! guess what i got to do all weekend long... i got to sleep....in a hospital bed. grr. i hate hospitals, and i never would have been there had my fater not insisted on my going. my father would not tell anyone to go to a doctor or hospital unless they were seemingly on the verge of dying. he hates them too, i now know where it comes from.

anyways, i went to work (6-cl) friday night and i was perfectly fine. somewhere between midnight and 5:30 in the morning i started to get a fever. i got up and lost everything i had eaten on friday...to put it nicely. well, as nice as you can put it, i guess. so i took some pain reliever/fever reducer during the day and i was feeling a whole heck of a lot better...until i tried to drive to work. not fun. they sent me home. so i went home and slept until about 10:00 friday night night. i got up again and lost what very little i had eaten that day, along with some blood. oh yeah, that was fun. once i had started vomiting blood, my father took me to the emergency room, where i found out that i was completely dehydrated, i was pumped full of ice cold water to (hopefully) stop the bleeding and then i was pumped full of iv fluids....that was loads of fun ^^;

so sunday morning they took me to my family doctor who suspects that i have migrane headaches which cause my dizzyness, which causes my vomiting. i wonder then how the fever and bleeding come in? but no one really knows what the hell is wrong with me, so i'm put in a hospital room through monday morning for observation. when they finally let me loose my docter gives me a perscription for four different meds which i am to try for the next four weeks, then come back and tell him how i feel. ^^ oh joy!